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Alkisah, tersebutlah seseorang yang putus asa dan ingin meninggalkan segalanya. Meninggalkan pekerjaan, hubungan, dan berhenti hidup.

Ia lalu pergi ke hutan untuk bicara yang terakhir kalinya dengan Tuhan Sang Maha Pencipta. “Tuhan,” katanya. “Apakah Tuhan bisa memberi saya satu alasan yang baik untuk jangan berhenti hidup dan menyerah?”

Jawaban Tuhan sangat mengejutkan. “Coba lihat ke sekitarmu.  Apakah kamu melihat pakis dan bambu ?”

“Ya,”jawabnya.

“Ketika menanam benih pakis dan benih bambu,  Aku merawat keduanya secara sangat baik.  Aku memberi keduanya cahaya. Memberikan air. Pakis tumbuh cepat di bumi. Daunnya yang hijau dan segar menutupi permukaan tanah hutan.  Sementara itu, benih bambu tidak menghasilkan apapun. Tapi aku tidak menyerah.”

“Pada tahun kedua, pakis tumbuh makin subur dan banyak, tapi belum ada juga yang muncul dari benih bambu. Tapi aku tidak menyerah.”

“Di tahun ketiga, benih bambu belum juga memunculkan sesuatu.  Tapi aku tidak menyerah,” kataNya. “Di tahun kelima, muncul sebuah tunas kecil. Dibanding dengan pohon pakis, tunas itu tampak kecil dan tidak bermakna. Tapi 6 bulan kemudian, bambu itu menjulang sampai 100 kaki. Untuk menumbuhkan akar itu perlu waktu 5 tahun.  Akar ini membuat bambu kuat dan memberi apa yang diperlukan bambu untuk bertahan hidup.”

“Aku tak akan memberi ujian yang tak sanggup diatasi ciptaan-Ku,” kata Tuhan kepada orang  itu. “Tahukah kamu, anak-Ku, di saat menghadapi semua kesulitan dan perjuangan berat ini,  kamu sebenarnya menumbuhkan akar-akar?”

“Aku tidak meninggalkan bambu itu.  Aku juga tak akan meninggalkanmu. Jangan membandingkan diri sendiri dengan orang lain,” kata Tuhan. “Bambu mempunyai tujuan yang beda dengan pakis.  Tapi keduanya membuat hutan menjadi indah. Waktumu akan datang. Kamu akan menanjak dan menjulang tinggi.”

“Saya akan menjulang setinggi apa ? “ tanya orang  itu.

“Setinggi apa pohon bambu bisa menjulang? “ tanya Tuhan.

“Setinggi yang bisa dicapainya,” jawab orang  itu.

“Ya,benar!  Agungkan dan muliakan nama-Ku dengan menjadi yang terbaik, meraih yang tertinggi sesuai kemampuanmu,” kata Tuhan.

Tuhan tidak menjanjikan hidup tanpa kesulitan, tawa tanpa kesedihan, matahari tanpa   hujan. Tapi Dia menjanjikan kekuatan, hiburan untuk kesedihan, dan cahaya untuk menerangi jalan.

I don’t know why I suddenly feel so home sick. I have been away for less than 2 months. It is still way too short compare to my being in the NL for my master degree. But since it is so different between living here and my other being-away-from-homes, it seems like I am not handling it very well. I guess living here in Caracas requires me being very much independent. Even the smallest thing has to be done by myself. I lack of my support system, particularly my emotional support system. You can imagine not having to talk to anyone about your deepest thoughts when you have actually spent so much time digging and spilling your thoughts out to your most trusted souls before. Now the question is am I really feeling home sick or I am just feeling lonely? Spare me a few minutes….

Well, noone is here for sure. Noone is within a phone call away nor within a range to reach out. Do I regret being here…? No, not for being here. I just regret that I am still stuck with the non-familiars. It feels like a total restart from the begining for me. I guess my being lonely is racing with time. I need to be more patient before I am able to indulge the life here and getting to know things and people. God, help me hanging on and prevent me from breaking. Am I really meant to be here? What I am still searching for in this world? Can I find it here? Am I doing the right things for me? Is there more for me outthere? Am I with the right people? God, I miss you and I miss me.

I have begun my new life in Caracas.It has only been two days. I still feel scared to the idea that I am going to live here for another three years, 5 months and 28 days. I cannot yet ensure myself to be brave and face this with a more open arms. Everything seems to appear difficult and I have yet no idea of how to deal with things. Even a simple thing like meals. This is bigger than my Geneva’s life. Even bigger than my ISS’s life.

But I need to give myself time and a chance. I am so lucky to have loved ones who keep encourage me even before I took my flight to Caracas. Those are real friends and I thank them and love them so much. All I need to do now is keep those love that has been sent away from every corner of the world and turn it into a strength that helps me to keep on going and having a beautiful life here.

I am looking forward to this new life. Scary as it is, I know things are going to be just okay. Cause even though I am here by myself in Caracas, I know I am not alone.

I just want to wish you all a happy new year. May 2009 brings you more success and happiness.

if you got a new year’s resolution then good for you. if you haven’t, don’t sweat it. your life resolutions don’t always come on a new year day. they can pop up anytime. it is the willingness to progress and be better that counts. well, I haven’t set my own new year’s resolutions. I haven’t figured out what I want this year. I had a wonderful 2008 and I believe my 2009 is going to be awesome as well. I hope your’s too.

Cheers!

The rules are simple. Use google image to search the answers to the quetions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 7 people.

Ready, Get Set & Go!

 1. THE AGE OF NEXT BIRTHDAY

2.THE PLACE I WOULD LIKE TO VISIT

3. MY FAVOURITE PLACE

4. MY FAVOURITE FOOD

5. MY FAVOURITE COLOR

 6. CITY I WAS BORN

7. NICKNAME I HAD

8. COLLEGE MAJOR

 9. BAD HABIT

10. HOBBY

11. MY WISH LIST

12. THE THING THAT I LIKE IN ALL OCCASIONS

for these 7 lucky people, happy googling! (though i’m not sure you read this post :))

 1.Penyu (i give it back to you girl!)

2.Baba

3…i give up. i dont even know who reads my blog :p

I am an actress

I know well how to live a character

I am excellent in playing any role

I am best at expressing feelings

Cast me for your script and I play your star

I am drama, I am action, I am science fiction

I am horror, I am comedy, I am anime

But when the lights are off and the camera stops rolling

Do you know me? Do you even recognise me?

I have my own script

I am my own star

And I am just me

why another blog? i don’t know. as i try to provide myself with spaces to write, i barely write.

i remember  scratching all over my school books with words and pictures. and now all the books are gone with all the thoughts written down on it.

maybe this blog can become a permanent thought-keeper. i hope. let’s begin.